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learn how to want to do the things you keep putting off.
a 21-day follow-through practice for adhd, audhd, and other nonlinear minds.
01 / 21learn to want the boring part, the hard part, and the next small step, with the energy, emotions, and attention you actually have.
you already know what it's like to want something so much that the hard parts barely register.
you can spend hours on something that interests you. solve a problem that has you hooked. follow an idea long past the point where someone else would have stopped.
then there are the things you genuinely want, the things you've planned for and decided matter, that somehow become almost impossible to start.
you know why you want to do them. but when it's time to act, that feeling is gone.
you can make another plan, find another tool, or remind yourself of the consequences. and still, it just isn't moving you.
you've gotten better at finding ways to make yourself act. you haven't necessarily learned how to generate the desire to act.
that's what we're practicing here.
you opened the document. twenty minutes later, you're reorganizing your desktop.
you just made a decision, faster than you could notice it.
most follow-through advice tries to manage that moment with more structure: break the task down, make a schedule, set a reminder, find a body double, raise the stakes.
those tools can help. but sometimes, even with the structure in place, you still don't want to take the action.
so it can feel like there are only two options. avoid it, and get short-term relief followed by the familiar weight of knowing you still haven't done it. or force yourself, until ordinary life feels like a series of negotiations with yourself.
there's a third option: learn how to want to.
desire on demand works on the part underneath: what makes you want to take action, and how to create that feeling on purpose when it isn't there. and sometimes, the desire only shows up after you start.
the task can stay mundane. what moves you to do it can change.
wanting the result doesn't automatically make the process desirable. the decision might be exactly the same, while your capacity, emotions, or connection to the reason has changed.
desire can be something you come back to, instead of a feeling you have once and hope will carry you through everything that follows.
that's the work of these 21 days.
this year so far:
127 skipped tasks
184 "tomorrow"s
63 afternoons lost to negotiating with yourself
small, every time. but each one takes something.
the text you’ve meant to answer for a week. the form that’s been open in a tab since september. the dishes you keep negotiating with. each one takes minutes to do, and hours to carry.
and all that carrying uses the same space, energy, and attention your bigger things need. the book. the business. the thing you’ve wanted for years. by the time you get to them, there’s nothing left.
you can want the result, know the result, care deeply about the result, and still not be able to fucking start.
and the way you negotiate with the dishes is the way you negotiate with the dream. it’s the same pattern.
that’s why we practice with everyday actions. every small thing you stop carrying gives you space back. and every rep builds the same skill you’ll need for the big ones.
it's easy to make a plan when you're feeling good. when you've got energy, your brain is cooperating, and everything seems possible.
it's a different story when you're tired, distracted, overwhelmed, or just cannot be bothered.
that's where we'll practice. with the actual things you're trying to do, on the days you're trying to do them. you'll learn how to adjust, find another way in, and figure out when to keep going, rather than turning every difficult day into another reason to feel like you're failing yourself.
from the outside, it's identical. underneath, it's completely different.
treat them the same way, and you'll keep trying fixes that were built for someone else. that's why you'll practice in your own life, and learn what's actually happening when you hesitate, avoid, or come back.
the decision to skip usually happens before you notice you're making it. the phone, the tabs, the "i'll do it later" that sounds completely reasonable. this week, you'll learn to catch that moment while it's happening, and practice finding your way back to wanting the thing, right there, in whichever way works for your brain.
most plans are made on your best day and handed to your worst one. this week, you'll practice working with the version of you that's actually here today, and doing the version of the action that fits, so a hard day stops being the end of the plan.
you wait for the feeling to pass, so you can finally get started. and sometimes it takes all day. but frustration, restlessness, even sadness can move you, if you know what to do with them. and the urge to quit can be avoidance, or it can be telling you something real. from the inside, they can feel exactly the same. this week, you'll practice reading what you feel as information, using it as fuel, and deciding on purpose whether to continue, adapt, pause, or stop.
you can know something matters, and still struggle to reconnect with the feeling that made it matter when you need it.
so every morning, you'll read a two-minute behavioral preload, a short script i created as part of the dopamuse follow-through system, designed with adhd and audhd brains in mind. it keeps your reason closer to the surface, so it's easier to reach in the moment you hesitate.
the preload is stopping that shitty voice in my head from coming up with excuses and then shaming me for having excuses...
i can feel these good physical and mental habits becoming more hardwired into my thinking.
the behavioral preload is part reminder, part receipt, and part best friend who knows exactly what you’re about to do.
three small steps, every day, building on each other.
for these 21 days, your preload's main focus is finishing desire on demand. so while you're practicing on your own life, the program itself becomes a practice ground too.
every time you show up for it, you're building evidence that you follow through on what you've chosen.
and if you miss a day, you come back. no doubling up, no starting over. coming back is part of the practice.
where are you today?
drag the handle to set your desire level
desire level: 50 / 100
thank you to sara for creating this space and this experiment, and to everyone else who is taking the time to show up for themselves and dismantle old patterns and self-imposed rules... i'm a audhd behavior analyst... you've articulated things in your previous content that no one else i've come across has touched on in quite the way you have and it resonates deeply (especially the nearly 2 years lost to burnout).
i think i can do it even when it's not "perfect"
one small win to start the day has so many positive ripple effects
i'm on a work trip currently and both yesterday and today i have gotten up to workout and been in bed early which is not usually how i roll... i've disrupted the pattern both days
maybe you're adhd or audhd. or maybe your motivation just comes and goes in ways you've never been able to predict.
desire on demand is for nonlinear minds who:
no diagnosis is required, and you can start exactly where you are.
for years, i thought i was disciplined. fitness was my life. i even competed in bodybuilding. i followed the plan, showed up for training, and kept going week after week. people called me disciplined, and i also believed them.
then i tried to bring that same discipline into the rest of my life. my business. my home. the admin. the things that mattered just as much.
and it just vanished.
so i figured something was wrong with me. if i could do it there, why couldn’t i do it everywhere else?
it took me a long time to see it. it was never discipline. i wanted to compete so badly that the hard parts barely registered.
the big things were never the hard part. the small ones were.
the hard part was everything that didn’t feel exciting. the organization. the admin. the boring business stuff. the basic things that kept my life running.
i knew they mattered, technically. i just couldn’t feel why. so they’d sit there. i’d re-decide them, re-plan them, forget about them, and feel bad about them, over and over.
and every time i actually did the things i already knew i wanted to do, even for a month, i’d get further in my business, my health, and my creative output than in all the months of trying to do everything at once.
that’s when it clicked. what i needed was a way to want the small things too, even when they’d never feel exciting.
so i built one. every tool has its place, but i’m not even joking, this did more for my follow-through than months of affirmations, meditation, and tapping combined.
desire on demand brings that process into 21 days of practice. and i’ll be in the group with you, answering questions and doing the practices alongside you.
a weekly lesson, prerecorded
a daily guided practice, about 10 to 15 minutes
a private telegram group, for support from me and the group. posting is optional.
ask sara: telegram q&a every wednesday
an extra week to finish anything you didn't get to
a bonus lesson on building your own behavioral preload, for anything you want to keep following through on
every lesson and practice stays yours. download the weekly practices as you go, and the lessons stay live, so you can come back anytime.
by the end, you’ll have 21 days of receipts, a few ways in that actually work for your brain, and a pretty good idea of what to do when nothing feels like it’s working
knowing your reason and feeling it when it's time to act are different experiences. you'll practice generating genuine desire in that moment, instead of relying on how you felt when you decided.
desire is one piece of it. your energy, emotions, attention, and circumstances all affect follow-through too. that’s why week 2 focuses on working with the energy you actually have, and week 3 on using what you feel, instead of letting it run your day.
genuine desire is different from overriding yourself. you might discover that a different approach helps, that the action needs to change, or that the original intention matters less than you thought. the aim is more options, not obeying every plan you've ever made.
pick up where you left off, one day at a time. the completion week gives you more room to finish.
no. everything happens in the private telegram group, at your own pace, with support through december 27.
pdfs and prerecorded lessons to keep. save each weekly pdf when it arrives, and it’s yours, even after the group closes. the lesson links stay live, so you can come back to them anytime.
because this is a digital program, all sales are final and payments are non-refundable. if you have questions before joining, email dopamuse.social@gmail.com.
desire on demand is an educational practice, not medical or mental health treatment. it's designed to work alongside whatever support you already have.
practice finding what makes action feel worth taking, even when the original excitement has faded.
last day to join is nov 30, 11:59pm pt
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